No matter how hard I try
no matter how much it hurts
no matter if it’s what’s right
and no matter if it’s worse…
There’s still that one forever
haunting my heart and mind
even if we’ll never be together
even if they’re always out of sight
Memories continue play on repeat
memories I silently beg to stop
memories that ache every heart beat
memories where I want to hit pause
Never knowing how to feel like this
never knowing it could hurt so much
never forgetting the feel of his kiss
and a fear of never getting over this drug
Having so many reasons to walk away
having so many reasons to hate
having no reason to ever stay
but having every reason to wake
Feeling imprisoned but free
feeling young but grown
feeling what you don’t feel…
feeling the love I’d never known